purpose of deception

I can't do what I can yesterday. I'm a little bit pressured with all the things surrounds me. I don't know what to do.. Am I happy? I'm tired of planning my life. As I am before, I don't plan I just go with the flow. But I add a little spice to make me different.

I don't know how will I going to say. But beyond my smile is a little voice saying "i like u." I have a gift for you this Christmas. small but I hope you will appreciate..